Infection of Happiness

As always, I had to write this one. I just have so much in my head that I need to share it. I just had to write this because for the recent past, I have been putting off things so much that it has become unbelievably overwhelming. To quote, I am exactly feeling like Bradley Cooper from Limitless after taking his first pill. I so want to get out of this rut and share my happiness to everyone. The past few days have been rough, well, I cannot say rough but rough, whatever,  things are moving quite good but not as expected. ( There is no satisfaction to human kind eh..?). Anyway, I saw a couple of movies recently that have been so close to my heart. ( No not chick flicks.) This lovely morning, I realized how lucky I was to have an amazing childhood, teenage and until now. I had everything I deserved, almost everything I asked for, incidents which made me happy, sad and some which even cost my life and I am still happy for what I have. I am so lucky to have such a beautiful life than most of the people in this world. I can eat anything I want, actually I can cook anything I want. All these simple thoughts are making me so happy that even though I am trying very hard to put it in good words, I am unable to.


Sitting in the library lobby, watching people walking around busily makes me happy. I will tell you why. With a huge smile on my face, I could successfully infect atleast a couple of tens smile back at me. Watching a beautiful girl dressed amazingly well in a bright dress, six inch heels at 11 am with atleast a dozen fat books checking out made me come to a conclusion that she actually had time for all that make up probably at 7 or 8 in the morning made me chuckle. Looking at a 50+ year old lady, walking hastily with a stoop with a couple of books and her partner slowly behind her trying to keep up with her reminded me of mom and dad because I know my mom would go crazy in a huge library like ours. This made my eyes wet with joy. I just overheard two girls shouting "I love you" to each other. When I looked at them, they both were facing away from each other, one of them walking away, probably its a "Girly bbye" and both of them shrugging their shoulders in a "whatever" expression. I started to laugh so hard that tears that rolled in my eyes just a min ago actually came out. Thinking of the movies I recently saw, books I read long back and philosophy that stuck to me from various sources and connecting the dots, I think I am happy not for me but for others. I am happy because a woman not only takes time to read a dozen books but also takes time to take care of herself. I am a shaggy nerd so I know how I feel about it. I am happy because a 50+ year old woman still finds time and energy to improve her knowledge. I am happy because her partner was right behind her to take care of her and probably he is happy that his partner is happy. I am also happy because although the girls shrugged in despair( I might be wrong too. ) took effort to say that they love each other. I am happy just that I am able to find happiness in everyone I see around and before hitting my lunch, I just want to force a couple of ppl to smile back at me. :)

(Oh, this is not a lot. Well, All izz well)

Mistakes

Like any other post, I want to say that this one is looooong due, but it is not. It is soo amazing that you learn lot of things from mistakes. I have read about it hundreds, may be thousands of times, definitely experienced it thousands of times but every time, it is a new thrill. It actually starts with hating yourself, followed by guilt, then smile, then moving on making sure not to repeat it again. Surprisingly, I had the guts to make a mistake which probably no one I knew did so far. I confessed to my interviewer that I did not eat and sleep for the past two days and apologized. Seems a fair thing to do but imagine what my interviewer was thinking when I told him this. He should probably had thought " What a nerve on this idiot?" but he was pleasant enough not to say that. I learnt several things from this, being honest gives you personal satisfaction, courage to write something like this in public and also teaches you to take enough rest and prepare well for all the future interviews, meetings and any other important stuff. Dear Mr.Interviewer, I am extremely sorry but I was not lying and I did not want to waste your time.

Does Thanking make a difference?!

Many ideas were dwelling in my brain right from the second I wrote the first blog. Then they slowly subsided and finally forgotten. This post is coming up with the gush ( to be scientifically precise"instantaneous energy"). Many many ideas ,thoughts or plans have sprung up for this post to come into life and they all have defined the word laziness for being not crawled into life.

This note comes out with inexpressible thankfulness right from the deepest cores of my heart for all those who have helped me or who got help from me or who hate me or who love me.. basically this one is for everyone I know or the everyone who knows me. I have met quite a variety of people..( exaggerating) more varieties than I can imagine. But 90% of them including myself have always told "Things weren't easy!" I recollect words of my uncle which have made very strong impression on me.It was the time when I was seriously sick but happy and I was telling how much my doctor earns every month to my uncle who was sitting right next to my bed in the hosp. My uncle said only one sentence ' All of you think about the measure of the money or fame he earns, now try to think how much pain or hard work he has put to get all of this' I thank my uncle to improve my perception" . Whatever I had in my life, the pains, the suffering, the acclaims, the tensions, the pleasure, the money, whatever is not my sole effort. It is and was the people around me and HIM who have made it possible. I was always surrounded by people, by their love, by their words when I was or am in pain. And I always was surrounded by people when I am happy , when am celebrating for the reason that they are the cause of my happiness and success. All the prayers, the support, the love, the motivation , the jealousy, the selfishness, the hatred of all the people have made me become strong, lovable, loving and crazy. I really wonder at how things though extremely difficult went on a smooth ride.

After seeing so many ups and downs ( 'many' is debatable but don't ) now I start wondering how to thank each and every person and how. Good that google doesn't have restrictions on writing pages but if i really start to pen down each and every name it would really be overwhelming. All I could say is "Thank You" for each and every person I know for whatever reason they know me or vice versa. It was all their effort to put me in such a place. I still have many things on my head but I really am happy for whatever I had or have or going to have. I am grateful to the One for having each one of you in my life. Thank you.

The Heading says it all

This blog will definetly show the typicality of a first common and make no sense blog. People who are hazy,confused yet having something in mind could find at home with this one.

Now I start with the same old. " Hi am so .... and soo..... "which obviously no one is interested in. Then i will go on saying on what i like and i dont. what i have and dont... which makes my blog typically "first one" as self centered as possible.

For a change lemme start with describing the beauty around me. Every saturday (although missed today) i go thru a place called "Cherokee Blvd" on my way to the school. I can take the 11 bus which i obviously will if it comes first but i stand at the stop waiting(actually praying ) for the 10 the small trolley called the "Link" which takes the longest route possible closer to the nature's beauty. Wonderful houses with elegantly maintained lawns, people basking out in the sun, expensive cars and crystal clear water. Though the combination is not completely natural, it feels really good looking at them . Actually good here is defined as "inspired". Well dunno if i have wrongly used it but i do feel the inspiration from within, though very volatile. People have worked their best giving out their time and energy to get a wonderful house very close to the nature. Irony in life is that all this science , technology , job and work take us very far from nature and again we spend thousands to millions to get back to nature. Probably the greatest magnet by him "Nature".. well let me not drift.. Whenever i see this place I always keep telling myself." I will have such a wonderful house very soon"

I really wonder at the money spent on the houses which they obviously worth to be spent on. One house as i write this comes into my picture is a house which is quite high from the level of the road. Built as intricately close to nature as possible. High trees at its entrance covering the "little vast" area of lawn with its shadows and the lawn itself so neatly maintained that from the link it looks as if there are huge stripes drawn on it. Wish I have a house like that with HUGE tress in the front. Actually a tree should run amidst of the house making me still closer to the nature. I really can imagine the amount of work i need to put in to imagine being in a house like that.

I always thought God has very subtle ways of explaiing his views to his people. Look at the way he called the "Link" is it a link connecting people with the rat race to the nature? or is it a way of showing people like me the "Link " between the hard work and happiness?!! I do believe that happiness is not money alone but i also belive in happiness being in lap of nature.

"Messages" ( Paulo coehlo calls it "Omen") are evident from him. Just open up your eyes and think. We are actually really close to him. It takes a little effort to feel it.